Thanks Tamara!!

I only got 3.5 hours sleep last night - not good when I had Uni first thing in the morning, but I was almighty worried and didnt want to leave Cheryl...I just want to be there with her....so we can cry together and stuff....I dont know why its so hard for me to get through this death.

I managed to make it through the day at Uni fighting tears and stuff cried the whole way into Uni - texting my Academic Assitant who has set up a meeting tomorrow for us to work on my assignment - its hard as she doesnt know anything about what Im studying...and as geatful as I am to have her service - I wish they had done a better job at matching me up with someone who has done the course so they can help me understand it more better...I was kicking myself stupid on the train home and in the library today for not bringing my flash drive with me never mind i packed my laptop! Grrr....I ended up breaking out in my last class screaming SHUT UP!!! To some students who were just talking none stop through a lecture in some foreign language....so totally unpolite!!

Anyway lol I had a guy on the train next to me who nodded off to sleep and became so deep in his sleep he was slowly falling/leaning to the side and he was coming towards me...and the whole time I was like OMG OMG OMG!! (Like I was copped up as it was with my laptop and stuff...) and the guy in front of me saw this guy slowly leaning to the side and we caught each others sight and had big smiles on our faces silently laughing...the train made a bump and the guy woke up and straightened up then nodded off again....I cant laugh to much I fall asleep on the train ALOT! One time I was so deep in sleep I didnt know we had arrived at the last stop i had someone shakin me awake..

Once I managed to get through traffic and had a road rage expereince at my driveway with damn people going through the inorganic rubbish again - some guy in a van was going slowly along the side of the road and then stops RIGHT infront of my drive and I went mental with my horn....

When I got inside sitting ontop of Abby's cage was a parcel from Australia....Tamara's RAK to me had arrived!!

YIPEE!!

Thanks so much!!

I wish I could have a play with it but ive got assignments to start and finish that are due this week but I will play with them as soon as I can!!

What a week!!

Well what a week it has been.

I entered a RAK on a fellow fiskateer's blog last month and I thought I would go and have a perve at it and see if there was a winner and though I didnt win the actual RAK I did however win a second prize!! Yipee!! Thanks Tamara I can not wait to see what goodies are on there way over the ditch to me! I then entered a few more RAKs on Fiskateers and yay I won a second one....yipee!! So more happy mail coming to me in the next few weeks.

My week started off to a rocky start - I had a crud weekend at work where I had staff members commenting on my hair all weekend - one saying how I had it looked messy (never mind Ive had my hair done like that for how long now..) and another asking when I was getting my hair cut again and that they had a great award winning hair dresser - to which I said I have a FABO hairdresser already thanks we just live busy lives right now and its the least of my problems my hair not being cut..but I managed to end it on a high note when I met up with another co worker down at the lake again...

My week got worse after Tuesday at work...having a co worker (the same one who was on at me about a hair cut *rolls eyes*) telling me i need to be more fast - well gee whizz and your not?? he was taking ages to get drinks up and stuff...and its not like there were alot of people at the bar..! He was more interested in having his meal...which he ate in the bar...Later in the night he had a go at me about a comment I made which he obviously heard different to what I had said...to an intoxicated semi regular - and all i could think was your such a idiot serving alcohol to an intoxicated person - which could get us a big fine if anything happened to him...and legally your not meant to service alcohol to someone who is intoxicated! I didnt spend like $3000 on that qualification for nothing and having 'Berto helping me study for that exam (hehehe that was a fun day that wasnt it- setting fire alarms off and other mischief making..) - and he assumed this guy was "mental" thats a bit harsh to make assumptions like that! Thats ok I have ammo on him that I will use where need be...my mum just reminded me of it today... but I had a big cry to Berto - whats making things hard for me is Im scared to death Im losing my bestest friend in the whole wide world - living with the fear that I will never get to see him and talk to him again....its hard enough living at opposite ends of the country...but yea....

Thursday was like being hit across the head with a plank of wood - I had spent the day before online talking to some of my friends from the UK - to wake up and find out that meerly 12 hours later I had lost one of those friends - and the arrange of emotions and feelings Ive been feeling upon learning of her passing....its so hard and scary....and i still do not believe it...I was unsure of how I would make it through work that night - I plastered a semi fake smile on...and I get to work to have one of my co workers (the one who comments on my hair being messy) was made Manager - yay for her its about time she was given something like that after being there 1.5 yrs...but how ever she made another stab at my hair...*rolls eyes* honestly people are you like jealous of my hair or something??? BUt yes she said when I have my hair down I look fat when i have it up its nicer for the customer as it makes me look like ive lost weight or some bullocks like that.....(and all I could think was here I am grieving for a friend Ive just lost while battling a UDED - gee thanks I will make sure I wont eat not like eat enough as it is...Im kind enough to my body if i give it one meal a day *rolls eyes*) - Though the end of the night wasnt too bad I guess - me and another co worker singing to the song we were playing lol which seemed to be repeated ALOT through the night and doing random dances through the restaurant haha - at least we got Staffies!! WHOOT!! Havent had staffies for a while (staffies is when we do over 100 people/heads then we get a free drink)

Friday I went into Uni and met with my Academic Assitant to work on my assignment thats due in next week - sooo over marketing plans now! And its hard as my AA doesnt know anything about my diploma which just feeds me rage against my University for not suiting me up with someone who has done my diploma....I was lucky to have them allow this meeting...gosh man you sucks our money out of us enough I dont think its going to cost you that much to spend a few dollars to pay my AA to meet with me... (thats what happens they are paid to assist the students in the disability resource centre thingy ma hog) - but yea we went around the city to a few different restaurants so I could do my market situation analysis...haha

So my so called friends have been pretty much rubbing it in my face how they are going away this weekend to a craft and quilt show...and the more the rubbed it in the more greatful I have become of my boss' rostering me on this weekend never mind having requested it off to go down with them - because I know next week i will have some money in my back pocket and they will do their normal complaining about money...*shrugs shoulders* plus I have an assignment to get startered and completed for next friday (damn marketing I can not wait till this semster is over and this paper is finished...so long as I pass it! Coz I wish not to repeat it thanks...) and Ive decided I dont actaully want to be around a bunch of snooty bitchy pre teens one of which has a bad mouth and isnt very respectful to her elders....given the way she spoke to me a few weeks ago....nor do i want to be around a bunch of adults drinking and talking about stuff that relates to me in no way or form...

*dances to the Rocky Horror Show Time Warp Song*

""(Riff Raff) It's astounding

Time is fleeting

Madness takes it's toll...

(Magenta) Ahh...

(Riff Raff) But listen closely...

(Magenta) Not for very much longer...

(Riff Raff) I've got to keep control.

I remember doing the Time Warp.

Drinking those moments when

The blackness would hit me.

(Riff Raff & Magenta) And the void would be calling.

(Guests) Let's do the Time Warp again.

Let's do the Time Warp again.

(Narrator) It's just a jump to the left.

(Guests) And then a step to the right.

(Narrator) With your hand on your hips.

(Guests) You bring your knees in tight.

But it's the pelvic thrust.

They really drive you insane.

Let's do the Time Warp again.

Let's do the Time Warp again.""

Its INORGANIC WEEK!! On my lovely street - and boy do I hate that time of the year - as every man and dog and PI in their Bongo vans comes and rips through your trash and throws a while pile of metal into the back so they can sell it for scrap metal since prices have gone up on that - and then for added effect pull a crowbar or hammer out from under the front seat and proceed to smash the tv and computer monitors - which I dont understand what that achieves apart from a mess of glass on the grass which creates a hazard later on...then to finish it off with a pair of wire cutters they chop all the cords off any appliances you may have put out...lol

And not to mention the mess of some places - thankfully my part of the street is tidy (for now) but further up in the suburb of Manurewa where the Housing NZ houses are whoa! Sometimes you wonder where everyone keeps all their junk...haha - people like to come down to the poshy noshy area like where I am thinking we will have some good stuff....

This year me and my neighbours dont have an overly large amoun out...hahaha - but its still annoying having people driving past and sitting outside your house and stuff...gah...and anyway what does the council do with all this rubbish we put out for Inorganic collection??

Well to end my week off I have been pulling knots of out Bullseyes fur and he isnt happy with me - but be feels so much better with them all gone and he knows Im doing him a favour - even if Sidney comes up everytime Bull throws a mental and meows Sid starts up as if to say MUMMY YOUR HURTING HIM!!

In Loving Memory of Laura

In Loving Memory Of
Laura McKinley
2nd September 1988 - 17th September 2008

If Tears Could Build a Stairway

If tears could build a stairway

and memories were a lane
We would walk right up to heaven
And bring you back again.
No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why
Our hearts still ache in sadness
and secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know
But now we know you want us
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store
Since you'll never be forgotten
We pledge to you today
A cherished place within our heart
Is where you'll always stay

To think I was only talking to you yesturday - I have so many questions that I will not have answers for - and though I only knew you for a short while I had started to call you my friend...my mind is racing with some many thoughts and things I havent had to expereince for a while....but I know I will get through this as will everyone else who knows and loves you. I never got the chance to meet you in person, but in my heart and mind we had...because its not how you meet a friend, its the fact that you have made a friend somehow through some means...

Watch over your two baby girls - I know they will miss you dearly, but will forever have a guardian Angel by them everyday second of the day. Look after Mine and Cheryl's babies....I know they will be happy to see their Aunty and a familiar face as you walk through the gates.

Aroha Nui Laura....

May you rest in peace...

May the road rise to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face.
May the rains fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again,
May the Lord hold you in the palm of His hand.
Irish Blessing

Lunch with the girls at Latin Larder Cafe

Work last night was funny but also scary....my Big Boss was in so it was strictly business, and it was like a war grown as he was pretty angry sounding especially with my boss...i spent the night with my Newbie whom I am training up in the kitchen as runner while the other one was on floor and I was straight to business..I had my big boss come to me saying i have to push desserts..its like yea ok (how when I am meal runner..) and later in the night he asked me how many I have sold I said none which isnt good I know, but I havent been on the floor tonight....I sold ONE by the end of the night...not good when he wants up to sell at least 50 or so a night..we have new specials again...and more desserts added to the menu...

Towards the end of the night when everyone had gone home and it was just the boys in the bar and me left to run what was left in the restaurant me and my boss were trying not to giggle over a customer who was completely out of it and had far to much to drink...she could hardly walk at all. And was just hooking onto any guy she could to get more drinks...I was told to watch her as she hadnt paid her bill...and she went to leave when I pulled her up and confronted her about if she had paid..she came in stumbling about trying to stand up and everything in her bag falls out....me and my boss were just like...shaking our heads...she disappeared after that to come back with another guy a few mins later....claiming to have lost her phone but it was in her hand the whole time...which was a bit funny when like 15 mins later she was like OH MY PHONE I FOUND IT!! I wonder what the big boss said about it when he watched the security cams and found her coming behind the bar trying to snog one of the boys...

I didnt get to sleep till 3am this morning...I dont know why...I ended up sleeping with my radio on all night it was that bad...I havent had this kind of problem for a while - sometimes I have the whole waking up in the middle of the night and not being able to get back to sleep for a while and then finding out the next day that someone I know has passed away...Maybe it was due to the fact I felt so empty and naked with out my navel peircing - I had it done last year as a symbol of where I was connected to my mother and where my baby was connected to me for those oh so short 6 weeks...but I have been battling it for a year this peircing....and my body has faught so hard to get rid of it, and its finally done so. Im not happy with it...but what can I do?? Just a process of waiting forit to completely heal over and let the dead skin and stuff die off and fall off...but I tell you if those two nobs that were once my peircing remain Im going to go see my doctor and see if he can do his handy work with a scalpel and remove them...otherwise Im going to have majob anxiety attacks and be depressed and stuff...which I dont want.

ANYWAY...

8.30am I think it was I woke up and I dragged myself out of bed and into the car and dropped mum off at work, then went back home had a piece of toast, gave the dog a worming tablet and some munchies for the fun of it...then jumped in the shower....straighten my hair after I got out and go glammed up to go out....went and picked mum up from work, got gas since mums car was out of gas...(grrr damn petrol prices when are they going to go back down!???)

I had Julia texting me saying she was on her way then Claire asking me where I was...haha Im sorry I was running late but thats becoming something new about me now...I blame the traffic...go figure I guess...When we got there I found the girls outside with water and menus....and I went ahead inside to go say Hello to Justin...

Had a perve over the menu then went up to the cabinets to see what goodies Justin had in there....and he told me he would make me a sammie...hehe....so I had that...poor man he called me over to get some of the meals he had made for us and said he didnt have an pastrami for on my sammie so he put ham on i said it was fine...I wasnt too worried about not having beef....I did love my sammie very much as did mum...Julia had an omellet and Claire and Lisa had muffins...I had a minor tantie over not having any sugar for my hot chocolate they only had raw sugar...and when Justin asked me what I wanted it for and why...I had to look at him with my loving eyes and sweet innocent smile saying my hot chocolate just wasnt sweet enough....Me and Julia had a minor complaint about no marshmellows which was settled in seconds hahaha...and a bowl of them was brought out.

Claire and Lisa headed off back out South and Julia went not long after them, I managed to snap some photos of hubby in action lol he caught on to me taking them too and started moving faster and hiding but I manged to get one with him smiling and laughing in it.....hehehe...and he told me to behave!!! He should know me by now I never behave around him.....because I know I get away with it....After the girls left I was alone with mum to watch Justin at work...I love watching him cook, it gets me inspired and he is one of a few people who were the reasons why I have remained at GPK as long a I have...I love watching Nick and Tim cooking too...but I dont think they will understand what it means to me. I want to stay there at least till Easter next year hopefully...but so that Nick and maybe Tim can teach me things I can use at Uni for when i do my Kitchen Operations Paper....if all else fails I will go up the road and seek out Justin at Latin Larder.

I gave Justin a big hug and kiss and finished off with a talk about work and where I want to go and stuff...it was good. Stop by the kitchen window at work and shoved my head in and said hello to Boo-Boo, Ashley and Philipe...Im like this is my Mum!! And Philipe is like hello Mum!! As i walked away I said to my mum so thats the french b****** that I have a love hate relationship with at work...

After lunch I headed over to the scrapbook store near work and got some things for these RAKs I feel so budget with what i got..Got to get one more thing for the main winner...will probably get that next week as Ive now officially spent this weeks budget. Ooops.

OH!!

And eggs DONT have Dairy in them!! I Asked Justin....hahaha I KNEW I was right!! Im not stupid like some people think I am....I understand Im just a "waitress"and that the "chef"is right over me but come on man.....How do you get Diary which is from a COW into a CHICKEN egg?? Sorbet is made with the egg whites from the eggs....which dont even have the protien part in them therefore making it ideal for a vegetarian too...

Ok I will stop rambling on about food...and leave it for another day...

To Roberto...

One thing about me and niece....we have this love for Miley Cyrus aka Hannah Montana, and well haha her dad is still pretty good looking for his age :P

I remember one time talking to 'Berto about how I liked Miley's new song it was another one of hers...he laughed...it was a fun joke...well I tell you I love this one at the mo...(we are always expressing how we feel in songs....classics us to be Avril Lavinge..but gone are the days of her haha...thats sooo 2004 for us...)

Miley Cyrus "7 Things"

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear
My dear The seven things I hate about you

The seven things I hate about you
Oh you You're vain, your games
You're insecure You love me, you like her
You make me laugh You make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them
Just know it hurts I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and its silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it I'll believe it
If you text it I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking seven steps here

Chorus: The seven things I hate about you
You're vain, your games
You're insecure You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them
Just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the seven that I like

The seven things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes
Your old Levis When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined
Everything's alright I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you

You do, oh
Ooh, ooh, ooh oh
Ooh, ooh, ooh oh

September 11

They say you will always remember what you were doing on the day of Sept 11th. I do, I was in bed sleeping, and my parents woke me up to watch the news, it was very early in the morning, my father would be up early like 6am or so to get read for work, and he would always wake us up me in particular with with hands covered in after shave...

But I remember the day, I was in Year 10 (4th form, for those who do grades I guess about 10th grade) at McAuley Girls High Schools - after watching it on the news I caught my school bus to school - 055 Stagecoach that went from Papakura to Otahuhu haha...and I remember one of my best friends I had in high school Rebecca going haha the trade centres blew up...(now now before you go off at me I was a young nieve teenager back then and I dont see it so funny now...but this is just what i remember from this day)....I remember us girls all being crammed into a classroom and Mr Lord playing a TV with the news coverage of it that was either taped or maybe it was live and we spent most of the school day watching the TV I thought it rather boring...it pissed me off as I wanted to go to my classes....why did we have to watch the coverage for?? We didnt for anything else...

I think it was a year or so later when I made friends with Isla (Cookie) in New York....I remember her telling me about how she was in the building next door and how she felt watching it all unfolding infront of her eyes....I also remember my sister's penpal's sister who was involved in an accident around the time of it....

Here we are 7 years later....and I must admit I dont actually think much of it anymore its one of those things that has been and gone and Ive forgotten about it as the years ago by...

But one thing will always remain the same...my admiration and respect and passion towards the Fire Fighters of not only NZ but of the world...

And so this blog today is in memory of those men and woman who put there lives on the line to do what they do best to help others...

B.

My Week (part 1)

Well Im half way through the week - and I havent achieved what i set out to do this week....since Ive been bashed over the head by my depression...but i need to fight back. If only the rain would sod off...then things would be a bit better - dont you hate it how the weather reflects how your feeling inside?? I reallllly need to get my head down and work on these reports and finish or well make a good dent in on my Marketing Plan Part B. And also work more on my report for my disablity hotel room thingy as well as design the room and do meetings with people...but I just dont know what questions to ask for that....and stuff.... I NEED HELP!! This was meant to be a group assignment only my group is a pack of incompitant w.................yes...I wont say the word...but you can guess it...and if you know me well enough you know I CAN NOT stand working with people who are incompitant and dont put in their weight of work and stuff....Ive had a few friendships and stuff over the years where they dont do any leg work and im left doing it all...

Monday night was really boring at work....Pam went home early and i pretty much had the whole restaurant to myself to run...which wasnt too bad as there was hardly anyone in. I went into work in a grump and depressed...which i havent done for a while and I had Mega ask me what was wrong I snapped at him saying it was none of his buisiness....Tim asked me if I was liking my break from Uni I said yes but Im really wishing I had Uni today....then I had him ask me what was wrong....and all I did was give him a look...(considering I had already sent him a text early on in the day telling him what was wrong) and I had Ashley ask what was wrong..talk about the whole kitchen demanding me for an answer as to why I wasnt my normal self....so I eventually told them - and after having a mental at Tim...he told me to go and see Justin - to which Anita said sign on...its like *evils* haha...but it was alright coz Justin came in not long after that. I cant believe how much I miss having him at work. As much as my co workers can put smiles on my face, they arent as good as he is. Told Justin that I would be coming into Latin Lader on Friday with my mum and my girlfriends...he said he cant wait and would see me soon...I spent the rest of the night taking my mood out of Tim...it didnt full satisfy me but heh...my little bitching to him saying i was never going to talk to him ever again didnt work fully to plan because well he was stationed as the head of the kitchen...

Anita later on in the night told me to go put the blinds up slowly as we were dead and it was almost closing time...and well when it comes to packing the restaurant up at night time I pretty fast at that - I think I scared Conrad the night before hand on how fast I was at it...lol. Well why should stacking tables and chairs take so long?? Anyway I told Anita that the winder thing for the blinds outside was broken and asked who did it...we all blamed Connie since he was who opened and it was find the night before when I closed up. Ok when Anita told me to go slowly she didnt mean THAT slow....she was watching me struggling at getting these blinds up with our broken winder.....which then had Theresa in fits of laugher then me....then Justin comes out from up the road at his Cafe to go home and sees me and Im like Oh Man!! Now Hubby's laughing at me!!! Justin drove past and yelled out to me something dirty that i wont mention here which just had me in bigger fits of laughter...it became a team effort to get these four blinds up...it got to the point where i brought the two bits of the winder to the front desk and told Anita to leave Andrew (our boss) a note saying sorry that one blind is still down...and explain why...Theresa is like does it really matter its not like anyone is going to walk into it..I said no only a blind man and his dog...she laughed...I said RUFUS!! Your meant to be GUIDING me you silly dog!!

Tuesday at work...Anita comes in and tells me that Andrew has a new winder coming in by courier but it hasnt arrived and that he complained about it taking him 15 mins to get two of them down....I said did you tell him to stop moaning that it took us longer to get them up! She said it took us well over 40 mins...they were easier to get down than they were to get up....so Im hoping that that courier has arrive today...coz sod that I have blisters from trying to get those things up! I had Nick come in later in the night asking me to put one of the blinds down out side i looked at him and said 1. I have just signed off and 2. The winder if broken sod off Im not doing it you can...he said well then why didnt you do this....he stand on the metal rod and pulls on it to make it bend...I looked at him going gee mate I'd hate to see what your like with your ex boyfriends.... Simon had a go at Anita thinking that she had set him up (he's our new Head Chef since Justin has gone and brought the cafe 3 doors up) as everyone came in at once and ordered all at once and then left all at once.....but thats GPK Takapuna for you...they all come in at once and its all the orders at once and then they all leave at once...hell he was moaning when I came in that nothing was happening and no orders were coming in...lol...I had Mega go off at me for debating with the head chef about Eggs having Dairy in them...I still stand by my view that eggs DO NOT have dairy in them....dairy is cow...not chicken...eggs come from chicken...there is no dairy in them....its like how they say eggs have gluten in them....its protien people!! Not weat!! I said wel lI always thought dairy meant cheese and milk related things....I wasnt debating it much I was just trying to clarify what ive known for years through my studies of food...he said well in the UK its classed as dairy maybe its different here in NZ..I said beats me...I walked out of the kitchen after that....

Do Chicken Eggs have Dairy in them?????

I spent the nighr watching my video of TV programmes had a mental at mum for not changing the speed setting on the VCR when she taped tonights shows therefore meaning i missed most of Outragous Fortune...I said in your power saving mode and turning it off at the wall resets the thing back to short play...you need to use the remote to change it to long play to fit more on the tape...she was like sorry...but Gordon Ramsay's Kitchen Nightmares was funny as the pub he was at had alot of things held up with string and stuff...I had a little giggle over that as Sunday night the light above the stove at work fell off...and Mega did a DIY job on it and its currently being held up with Glad Wrap/Cling Film.....its amazed its actually holding up...considering the heat that will be going up there.....

Today I was awoken by a whole pile of texts - one from John saying we had a group meeting for our assignment next week at the Library at Uni....grrrr Im not in the mood for going into Uni....Im loving being away from there....and I havent budgetted for a trip into the city at all in the next two weeks - I need to get me rego on my car!! Urgently!!

Well I best get into doing these reports...catch up with you all at the end of the week after my Lunch with the girls...

GRRRRRRRR

GRRRRRRRRRR some people just really piss me off!!!!

And some people just will never change, and fail to see the changes in you that you have made....why is it when you spend months working on correcting the mistakes you have made in your life, fixing the things that fell apart after something that happened to make them change...and distroy your original plans...

Why is it is that when you start to deal with things and processing them and working through them and moving on from past things.... those things come back to you...when you sit there saying Ok so they obviously dont care and have moved on and stuff...then the pop up out of the blue.....

Today was meant to be spent working on my reports for my assignments and stuff....only that didnt happen....

I HATE DEPRESSION....I really do....and for the past week ive been feeling rather low...even though my doctor said my mood seems to be better...though I swear and say that the reason i went into my appointment last week was because it was the last day of Uni for two weeks.

Why is it that everything i think its a good idea and will help me has the opposite effect???

I give up....

Thank God Fathers Day is over!

Man what a weekend!

Saturday I was awoke by the dog...grrr...she comes zooming down to my room and jumps on the bed and whimpers away pushing her head in to pull my face out and stuff...sometimes i wish she would just shove her head in under mine nad just curly up and go to sleep or what ever but no shes just alimghty hypo and full of beans....

Claire's son Jono and Dylan were over alone with her Border Stu, they were cutting down the trees in our back yard....so we now have more light coming into our house and the neighbours house...(my dad put these trees up 10 yrs ago to block the neighbours we first had there out..he didnt like them...) all thats left to cut out is my pine tree i grew from seed back in 1995....which Im almight proud of....its even got pinecones on it now!! but its sooo big its close to taking out both houses haha...I thought it would have died the other 5 did...but not this one hahaha...

I went to work at 3.30pm for a staff meeting and dessert tasting, our sales are low at our location for dessert...way way lower than the others...and aparently our staff have been saying they dont know what things taste like...but now i know what they are like...so i can sell them better...why cant we do this for all our menus when they are changed and stuff?? i hate lying about what things taste like...

My big boss had food in his mouth when he started talking to someone....and i turnt around and DOMINIC!!! Didnt your mother teach you not to speak with your moth full...he smiled at me and shoved a mouthful in again and started talking to me...so I did the same and we had this convo with food in our mouths....unlike the rest of my co workers i dont hate my big boss...haha I look up to him with great admiration for what he has achieved....yes he may take 60% of my tips and stuff....and the conditions are crap but still...

I sat in my car for like 3 hours waiting till I had work after that meeting - I wasnt in the mood for moving my car....as I wasnt insterested in paying for parking and I was sitting in a free spot outside work and i have clear view of a wedding reception going on at a thai restaurant and there was no way after I saw them enter that i was moving...I would lose my spot...so it was sitting in the car with the radio up loud i did....texting some random guy off a dating site who was pissing me off with his "Oh Tru Tru" at the start of every text....yes Im not texting him again hahaha...to be kind...



Sunday was a blah day - I rang my boss to see what time he wanted me in as I wasnt sure which time he wanted me....My convo went a little like this "Hello its me Bronwyn" to which Mr Smart Ass....said "hello its me Bronwyn how are you" hahaha very funny what time am I starting??

Work was shit, I started at 4pm, I was put on Back Section...which was cool, Aaron was on Middle and Theresa was on Front....but low and behold little Miss Welsh Bitch must had had a bitch about that as sometime later I find out Im actually on front section....grrrrrr....the whole night she was doing my head in...I just wanted to kill myself...I had a big yelling match with her in the restaurant that Conrad had to break up....I was running drinks out she had order that tables hadnt asked for at all...to have her go off at me for not telling her what i was doing on her tables...! I had her come in the kitchen and go off at me for not telling her what a table was doing when i screamed back at her ITS NOT YOUR FUCKING SECTION YOU STUPID COW ITS AARONS!!! YOUR ON BACK NOT FUCKING MIDDLE!! She was like stunned and tried saying I was wrong...then stopped and said you know what actaully your right and walked out...there was a silence in the kitchen that a tumble weed could have passed through....

Boy oh boy i can not wait for two weeks time when she officially LEAVES!! It will be fucking great with out her...!! I was so glad when she left last night....though i had to deal with the boys rambling on about drugs and where they could get some so late at night on a sunday and stuff....and its like yea please someone kill me now or save me.... dont like being around drugs....I have a life promise with my bestest and closest friend not to touch them ever....and ive watched first hand what they have done....

Philipe was running up and down the bar after we had closed up chasing after me...he had left a slice of cheesecake on the bar for me...aww how sweet....hahah I still hate you you french twat hahaha....there was a moment during the night were we were yelling at each other going I hate you!!

I was just greatful to go home after that horrible night at work...as much as I fear working with my boss, those nights seem to be more in order than the night where he isnt on as manager...Im so over Father's day as much as Im over Mother's day...



So I woke up this morning at 6am and heard the news on the radio then went back to sleep to wake up at about 10am or so in a panic worring about Rob...I wanted to text him, after hearing this news...but thankfully he texted me not long after and my troubles were eased in that part...

Ive spent the past 4 hours talking with him...YAY!! Lol sharing photos and stuff....god i miss him! Just spending time with him laughing and being silly....I have so many fond memories of my times with Rob.....its just yea.....










Im feeling almighty triggered to self harm...

Time after Time RAK **WINNERS**

Well my first RAK has come to an end....and I have some winners..

The number of Clocks between AUT University and Britomart station from my little trip was EIGHT.


The WINNERS are...

1st: Melissa!!!


Runner Up: Karen von Baron!!

Ladies please email me your details at belltbronwyn@xtra.co.nz and I will get your goodies out to you with in the next few weeks.

Thanks to everyone who took part...and Im glad you enjoyed the photos from Auckland City CBD.

These were the Clocks.

Auckland Art Gallery

Auckland Town Hall

Civic Theatre

Outside Queen Street Pharmacy

Corner of Queen Street and Victoria Steet

The Guardian Building

Britomart Transport Centre (the former Post Office building)

The Ferry Terminal Building

The clocks on the train platforms were tricks ones....lol. I was amazed at how many clocks there were so close to each other....and Im so fasinated by them....there is one in Kings College and we have one in the suburb I live in....and I have gone to alot of differentcities in NZ that have a clock tower in the centre of the town/city...






And Roberto - lol poor baby you were one off!! But just because your my bestest friend in the whole wide world I'll send you something special...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMMMMMMY!!!

Well today is my mum's 49th Birthday.....yes I remembered how old my mum is finally! Only because I know next year is her 50th....and Im planning a party....so I have a whole year to do that in....(never mind ive spent 6 months collecting songs for the party..haha) I made her a card.... :p



Well My weekend went pretty well I like to think....Saturday night was fun at work, had Andy in whos a regular, think he's from the UK or something and Ive seen him before...but havent fully talked to him properly...he asked me my name and I told him and asked me where I was from and told him I was born in NZ but am Irish...he asked if i was Welsh having a Welsh name...i said yes 6th generation, but 3rd Irish...he was cool with the Welsh bit but wasnt so sure about the Irish bit....I laughed....he then asked me if my middle name was Theresa I was like YES! He said most Welsh chicks seem to have the name Bronwyn or Theresa...Im like yes my name is Bronwyn-Theresa. (He knows Theresa at work the Welsh bitch I hate and who everyone else does too pretty much).....so yes the night was fun...he and his friends were chatting up ladies...me and my boss and Aaron were pretty bored and were finding out little nitty gritty details about the customers outside....I had a couple of girls who were so out of it asked me their name and then tell me theres..i went in and said two ladies on table blah blah so and so and so and so....my boss is like hmmm not bad...Aarons like bet you get their numbers by the end of the night...Im like whats the chances they are lesbian?? haha...by the time Andy and his friends finally left it was almost 1am and we were beyond closed...I was so proud of myself on Friday night as I managed to open tow bottles of red wine with out breaking the cork....bless having screw tops now...haha...I usually break the corks...but I was almight proud of that....I rained my whole pride though breaking a damn flute glass...Aaron cracked up laughing at me for that...I havent broken anything since March!

Sunday was a funky day at work...I had Tim texting me through out the day...and we met up down at the Lake after work....it was such a nice day the sun was out...we had a little chat - i dont really have much to do with my co workers outside of work so this was a first for me....although I did have drinks with a couple of co workers the other week. After we departed our ways..I headed over to Albany to Julia's where Claire was....the pair of them had the dinning room table COVERED in scrapbooking stuff and cuttlebug stuff...I sat there in this 10cm square space making a birthday card for my mum and a thank you card for my doctor... (I have a FANTASTIC GP who I dont know what I would do with out him...Im forever greatful for the care he has given me in the past 3 yrs....)

After me and Claire headed back home, I stopped by Claires to check out her new kitchen...then it was back home again. Lol

Monday was a pretty good day at Uni...we had a practise oral presentation in Literacies...I didnt go with the boys in my group to our choosen restaurant as I dont like making trips out of budget to the shore...I only budget for my shifts at work. But I think I did well considering I didnt have a speech written lol...and looking at the photos of the boys Im lol glad I didnt go...hahaha..nah not really. Still lickin my wounds over the fact I lost that debate with John as to whos work to do...KFC SUCKS!! GPK IS BETTER! Its a real restaurant not a fastfood place..

Work on Monday night was great! I walked in and there was Justin...my smile beamed out - boy I havent had a shift with him since I think before I went to Christchurch I was worried I would never get to have a final shift with him before he leaves to take up Pandoros next door....it was fun and games while I pranced around on my little high buzz....we gave each other a big hug and kiss before I left to go home....and next week on Friday i have planned lunch out with Julia, Claire and possibly Lisa at Justin's new place....and hubby said I was allowed to come in when ever I like...so long as I behaved....and he should know me by now...I NEVER behave when he's around...Justins introduced me to his brother last night and his brother's mate..to which he added "he's single" Im like and who told you I was detached?? He said to me because of the way I was flirting... I said only for you my dear hubby...he told me I was a bad girl and go do some work...

Im going to miss him! He makes me laugh and smile....even if he is a dirty perverted chef...haha..(incase your wondering he's not my real husband..its a joke at work, where he asked me some months ago who would i kill shag and marry at work...and I said I would marry him because he would cook for me....so thats why he is referred to as my hubby at work..)



Well I guess I should go to Uni....